march 19, 2006

Hello. A few days ago, I hit upon the idea of attacking depression through memories. It seems to me that the programming I'm reading about in books like Think and Grow Rich and The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People is something parenting can (and does) develop in some people: that the principles discussed in these books are so deeply embedded in some peoples' views that they cannot help but be successful, well-adjusted and happy. For those of us without this basic conditioning, another method is needed. Napoleon Hill (Think and Grow Rich) counsels in using auto-suggestion, but as Steve Covey (7 Habits) points out, this can lead to the "Cult of Personality," where the person is doing all the right things, and achieving outward success, yet feels miserable and empty inside. Some deeper way of connecting with the kind of outlook, hope and confidence that makes for a happy, productive life is necessary.

So I'm going to reprogram my memories. I know my formative years weren't all bad so this blog is an attempt to reconnect with happy memories, and establish connections stronger to them than to my sad ones.

Memoires of Some Happy, March 19, 2006:

I am in my mid-twenties, having breakfast, at two or three in the afternoon, at a little greasy spoon in Ottawa. I'm with Brian, my "bad boy" boyfriend who has attempted to address his hygiene and personal grooming habits in order to win my attention. It's worked, I'm very much in love. The woman serving us breakfast disapproves of the way we make out at the table.